Write about a lesson you've learned the hard way.
Dreams don't always turn out like you thought they would. But that doesn't mean you shouldn't dream. My dream of teaching was nothing like I thought it would be and in the end, I made myself sick- physically, mentally and emotionally- trying to make everything perfect for everyone. What a life lesson that took almost 40 years for me to figure out- I'm not put on this earth to please others. I am no where perfect, but that doesn't mean I give up trying. I did give up teaching because well, for a lot of reasons but the biggest part was that I wasn't happy in my job and I wasn't being supported. I had way too many to-do's but no one helping me to prioritize. I did and still do have a supportive family and my mom (bless her heart) still asks me when I'm going back into teaching. I was so burned that I'm not sure that part of me will ever heal. It was mostly a self inflicted wound- I put too much pressure on myself to get everything done to make everyone happy but it didn't work out that way. So I left teaching for my health. I wanted to be an outdoor educator but I don't have a degree in it, so I'm not teaching.
I have actually been thinking a lot lately about the fact that I don't have dreams or aspirations anymore. I'm too old, the world is too crazy, blah blah. I just feel numb right now. I'm too old to have dreams. Well, I would like my own house someday. And to go to every state. and every ballpark. but that's it- nothing really crazy because I'm too old for crazy. too scared for crazy.
I just searched for a picture to post and it's pretty wonderful and matches me to a t.
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