I knew it!

Don't you love it when you do something, only to have something bad happen right after- like what you did was all in vain? I had a feeling that would happen. Again.

First, my car. It is 13 years old and had a good life (I guess). My radio broke 2 or 3 years ago. I just had my spark plugs and brakes and struts changed within the past 4-6 months. And guess what- it still is falling apart! I've been researching new cars online and test drove 2 today, only to be more confused as to what I want. I thought for sure I knew what I wanted- a 5 speed Ford Fiesta Hatchback with such and such options with cruise. Well, of course they don't have what I want, but "they can get it". Of course they can get it. But how much is that going to cost me? Ugh. I'm not up for games, but I sooooo need a new RELIABLE car!

Second, teaching. Last week, I mailed my $120 to renew my teaching license. Got an email the other day that they just need a copy of my professional development (my course) when I get it. Yesterday, I emailed and called and paid to get an extension (because I'm a procrastinator/slacker) on my course. And to top it all off- I got a call this morning from the principal that interviewed me tell me I didn't get the position, but that I was one of 80 something that got interviewed. Yes, I am fortunate to have been interviewed. I'm just sick of all the crap I have to go through to get one! The woman who got the position, the principal told me, had more experience. She also told me that times are tought and good luck. Is that supposed to make me feel better???? I've been doing this for 6 years. SIX YEARS!!! I'm sorry, but I have to vent. This crazy pursuit is driving me nuts and I'm fed up with it.

I just about always finish what I've started. My parents taught me that. It took me 7 years, but I completed my bachelor's degree. It will take me a month or so, but I will finish my course. I will finish out the season at Branbury State Park. But after October 9, I will be pursuing something different. I'm not quite sure yet, but I have to do something. I've been a teacher. Maybe that's all God wanted me to do. I just wish I knew what He had up His sleeve.