And ever since then, I have felt good about that choice and not so good about that choice and back and forth.
Today was my last day teaching at school. It was hard. It was awkward. And then I forgot report cards and felt dirty stinking rotten about holding everyone up (buses...) to pass out report cards.
Today was a low day.
But as the sun is shining through the clouds, I'm remembered that life isn't all bad. Today is the beginning of my new adventure in life. What adventure? I have no idea! Well, that's not totally true.
This summer, I will be working at my favorite Vermont State Park as a nature interpreter (remember, I speak for the trees? That's me!) After that, I'm not totally sure- probably working again at Killington, but full time for the season.
Oh, I know what you're thinking. Believe me- I know. I know I am quitting teaching- leaving a full time job with benefits for what? Health and happiness, that's what. I have not been happy where I've been. I have put my whole life into my work and it's caused me to be unhealthy- body, mind, and spirit. Not that I haven't been happy as a teacher. Snaggles, no! I just can't do it anymore. The stresses outweigh the good.
There are other reasons for my move. I want to be closer to my mom and dad. You know, they're getting older and I need to keep an eye (closer eye) on them whether they like it or not. And I just need to be closer to them. They're all I've got.
So, yes, I've made a somewhat snaggly decision 3-4 months ago. But I'm taking a leap of faith because that's what my life needs right now. "Let go and let God". Today was pretty hard to let go and see the new teacher walk into my classroom. But it's not mine anymore. I have to come to peace with that. (and this blogging thing helps with that... fyi)
In other words, I'm still pursuing patience.
