All in vain?

So yesterday, after spending a wonderful afternoon at the lake with 4 of my little cousins, my mom, and my cousin Becky, I look at my mail and there's a letter from the State of Vermont Department of Education. Uh oh. Not good. They are waiting to process my teaching license renewal until they get my transcripts for my course. The letter stated that if they didn't get my information by next Friday, that I'll have to go through the whole process again. (pay ANOTHER $120? no way!) So, I get mad and frustrated and try not to think about it. I know what I have to do. So this morning, I email the woman and tell her that I have extended my course until next week and I'm not sure when I'll get my transcripts. I asked if she could extend my application further or not. I'm not holding my breath.

Then at work I was thinking, ugh, I should have ordered my course in November or December and I would have had it done by now and wouldn't have to worry about this stuff.

But I was also thinking, is this a sign that I'm not supposed to be doing this? Or is this a sign that I need to perservere that much longer (whatever that amounts to)?

I've made up my mind about one thing. I'm going to finish this stupid coursework and feel good about it. The State of Vermont Department of Education can kiss my... no, that's not nice. It's not their fault, it's mine. I didn't get my stuff together to get this all done earlier/on time.

Woulda, coulda, shoulda. It's hard not to dwell on the past, but to learn from it. God will provide me with a job doing something- that's all I have faith in right now. And that my car won't fall apart driving to and from work.

rain rain, where are you?

July 22 already. Whew! The days are just  f  l  y  i  n  g by. Fairs are coming up soon. And then, back to school for most people! For me, just work and sleep. Occasionally I try to work on my course papers that are due August 11th... Rarely do I look for teaching jobs. I'm so close (sort of) of finishing this course, that I don't want to finish because I know I won't get a teaching job. I will finish, because I've been taught to finish what you've started. Wow- I just had a déjà vu moment- I feel like I say this in every blog I write. For those of you who actually take the time to read this, I sincerely apologize for being insane. (saying the same thing over and over and expecting something to change- wait, are we all insane then??? hmmm... I wonder...)

In case you've been hiding under a rock or spelunking in some sort of cave, it's been a hot summer here in the US. Most of the country is under drought conditions. Vermont and the northeast is soon going to join that list if we don't get a good couple of days of rain. The lilac tree/bush that I can see from my window is withering away. Our lawn is brown and crunchy. Same with the lawns at the park where I work- brown and crunchy. Aparently, a rain dance is in order.

Oh and my car (Mr. Mazda Miyagi) is officially kaput. So I got a new (to me) one! I haven't named it yet (speedy??) but it's a navy blue 2004 Toyota Matrix loaded with all kinds of cool stuff like a moon roof, 6 CD changer, SIX SPEED manual transmission, tons of room for skis and stuff... I'm happy. I just need to stay working so I can pay it off! My current job goes until early October and ski season starts early/mid December. So for 2 months I'll be panhandling and picking up bottles on the side of the road. Just kidding! I'll actually be doing something constructive I'm sure. What? not teaching or substitute teaching. Possibly waitstaff somewhere. I'd like to know for sure what I'll be doing 3 months from now, but I have realized that God laughs when I (we) plan ahead because IT NEVER HAPPENS THE WAY WE PLAN IT TO BE. So I shrug my shoulders, take a deep breath, and say ok- whatever happens, happens.

Now that I've updated my computer (it just took 8 hours), I'm going to get off and go water my very thirsty veggies and flowers. Maybe I'll have to take my car for a drive to the lake to cool off!

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